m and t - a booby story

I was supposed to stop breast feeding last night.

I could not do it.

Do I have a good reason?

No.

Well ya, i do.  I am afraid of how nights are going to be if I don't give Mat the boob before he goes to bed.

Maybe I am worrying for nothing?

Will I breast feed again tonight?

Yes.

Why?

Don't want it to stop right now.

Will I try to stop this week ?

Yes.

Because I want to stop before having another baby.

It is so hard to stop something you love to do.

I told my mom this week that if I have another baby, I would like to breast feed for two years!

Because I know that, I will never have the chance to breast feed again ...

Feeling my baby next to me - in unison.

That is so sad.